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HAPPY POST ♥ at 6:40 AM

GOOD NEWS :)
MUM AND DAD went to singapore last wednesday and doctor said. mum's tumor is getting smaller and smaller. yet she still need to consume the chemotheraphy tablets which is actually a huge torture for her. cause there's just too many side effects after taking this capsule. it looks like the antibiotic i normally take when im sick but the thing is... this capsule that my mum is consuming is very strong. i've seen her taking it then she vomited the whole day. let me tell you. the scene its exactly like what you've watch in dramas. i do pity my mum cause i couldnt share her pain. all i can do is give her a pet when she's vomiting and get her some warm water to make her feel better. after this incident i learn to love my mother more and care for her even more and now im learning up a song 'JUST FOR YOU' specially for my mum cause mother's day is NEXT WEEK. WOOHOO. and yea, the hardest thing that i had do today is to say farewell to you. but i sincerely hope that you'll lead a happy life without me. i know you can :) takecare,L. FAREWELL..

JOEY1827♥


A NEW DAY HAS COME ♥ at 8:32 AM


I SHOULD START WITH A GOOD NEWS TODAY :)
mum did her mri and ct scan today. though the ct scan was indeed a huge torture for her but everything worth. cause according to the doctor in ipoh. he said that the tumor in my mum's brain shrink and it is definitely a good sign. everyone at home is so glad cause after all the tears that had been shed, finally we hear laughter again. i believe god heard our prayers down here. thankyou everyone that has been praying hard for my mum all these while especially my popo. somehow i realise i can really smile again. and yea mum and dad is going to singapore this wednesday for a further check up for mum, i am sure everything will go well. the day before i was indeed moody. i miss my soulmate. i lost someone who used to listen to me. but i guess its a better wayy for you and i. you lead your happy life and yea.. burden-free
to be frank. i am sad well, its been 3longg years we're fosters. letting go is not so easy but i will still forget about you cause i know this time things arent the same anymore. there's nothing that we can do to mend this relationship anymore. maybe its true. what is gone will never come back. i guess what is left now are just memories that will always be in my heart. ANYHOW, IAMSORRY.

JOEY1827♥


THE END ♥ at 6:05 AM


THERE IT IS THE END OF OUR JOURNEY. but i guess i feel okayy with it. despite of feeling sad i felt happy instead. cause i finally see your true colours. you told me i am bossy and demanding. THANKYOU. cause you're so daring to say this about me. never knew that you hate me so much but pity you cause you've been torturing yourself so hard. im sorry cause i only realise i was that bad today. i will change not for YOU but for the sake of myself. you dont know how to appreciate our relationship its okayy. i always tell myself. if someone leaves me i will deserve someone better in future. i felt like i've wasted my effort to start making a card for you earlier on for our foster. now that everything has ended. i guess i should just burn that card or tear it apart. i no longer wanna hold back our relationship. i will never out anymore effort to mend it back cause our 'ship' has shank down to the bottom of the ocean no matter what how much effort i put in to make this ship move again. i will never work anymore cause its BROKEN and now all i need is to focus in studies and love people that i should love and not YOU anymore. I WOULD LIKE TO SEND MY HIGHEST GRATITUDE TO YOU FOR PUTTING ON THIS SHOW FOR SO LONGGG :)
thankyou and sorry cause putting you through such hard time. goodbye and farewell.
*another beginning of my new chapter of life coming in next post*

JOEY1827♥


LEAD A HAPPY LIFE? ♥ at 6:17 AM

for many people to lead a happy life. they need money. but for rich people. to lead a happy life. they want to live healthy. humans are always greedy like i know. who on this earth dont wanna be rich, healthy and happy? if girls. they wanna be pretty, skinny, attractive and out standing. if guys. they wanna be good looking, muscular, tall and attrative too? am i right? but life is never perfect. cause i always believe that god is fair. though i am not skinny like other girls but i know i might have some extra talents that others dont have. :) so i am trying to take things easy. dont get jealous for others appearance cause i believe i am pretty in my own way.okayy. maybe i'm not so pretty so i rephrase my sentence. I AM SPECIAL in my own way. for me, life is like a roller coaster. we have highs and lows. BUT HEY THERE PEOPLE, when you're down dont think that, it is the end of the world cause after the rainy day sun will shine again remember? and when it comes to love. i have learn to take it easy. and to people out there. i know letting for someone you love is hard but i bet for the sake of giving your love a better life... you'll let go wont you? if i were you... I WILL.

JOEY1827♥


LIES OR TRUTH? ♥ at 6:40 AM


WHAT IS THE TRUTH IN YOU? i am searching for it. rumors and what i've seen with my own eyes makes me feel that you have not tell me the truth yet. but i've chosen to trust you bcause i have a feeling that you wont lie to me. i assume that you know i hate people telling lies to me. especially when you're my foster. i'm sure you know i have phobia towards being cheated. though sometimes i feel left out bcause of her presence. but i will endure. i will understand and i should feel happy for you cause you seems to be happy nowadays. i could see bcause of her you smile again like how you used to. compared to at first when you broke up with her. your heart was hurt badly. and i knew you even cried. but i am happy that i somehow made you feel better and you felt better as time goes on. however i am still worry about you cause that girl you're being with... had hurt you once. i dont hope to see anything like that to happened on you again cause you've struggle to hard through that time. i hope that you will see who is real to you and who is not. open up your eyes and choose them right. and yea, i am very excited cause GB camp is cominggg. i bet I WILL HAVE LOTSA FUN WITH MY FRIENDS :)

AND 'W' please grow up. i hope that you wont give everything to your love and forget to save some for yourself. learn to love yourself and dont take everything as forever. and learn what does manners mean. joke at the wrong time and remember to respect others or else you're just gonna embarrass yourself in front of public. and if you learn that up people will learn to like you and respect you.


JOEY1827♥


LIFE ♥ at 5:34 AM

some people died and some people survived. all sorts of things can happen every second. for example in just one minute. IMAGINE, how many people actually being swept away by the strong tsunami in japan. answer : countless. i compared with so many people out there. i can tell that i am really very lucky. i know i wont die of natural disaster here in MALAYSIA. that is good enough. though i am lucky but it seems that not everyone is lucky. i just heard of this incident. it happened to my teacher's son. as i know that that kid is not even 7years old yet and he might die. he fell down as he run through a slippery floor and knock his head. and yea, he had a blood clot and he did an operation. after the operation things got worst. his brain's blood vessel snapped and now he's 90% brain dead. but i always believe that active kids like him recover very fast so i am sure he will recover cause i am sure god would not want to take this kid's life away. i pray hard that he'll recover. see... this kid is not giving up yet bcause we could still feel his heartbeat showing that how much he's working on to wake up from his deep sleep. and yet, there's so many pathetic people who commit suicide. they just dont know how precious life is. isnt it? if we can pay just to live longer i believe many people out there are willing to pay no matter how many million it cost. i hope that no matter what obstacles we might face in future or now. be strong and stay optimistic. committing suicide cant solve the problem but it will make people who cares for you feel sad. so love your life and appreciate it.
every sunrise is a new day, so i believe if things dont go well for you today. things will get better for you TOMORROW :D
PRAY HARD!

JOEY1827♥