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STORY NEVER ENDS ♥ at 4:14 AM

on the 18th october 1995 i was brought to this beautiful yet confound world. it is tough for me to live in this world as i am gonna face more and more consequences as i grow up day by day but what is even tougher is YOU, my MUM bringing me to this world. actually thinking of someday when you will leave me.it really breaks my hear. i really tried so hard to be optimistic. however... i cant. i wished that everything that happened was just a dream. till now. nothing seems to be real to me. NOTHING at all.but there's smtg i realize after my mum fall sick which is I AM A 100% spoil kid.
i dunno how to wash my clothes. i dunno how to mop the floor. the only thing i know how to do is washing the dishes. ahh. besides being reckless i know NOTHING. i am used to be pampered. i still remember when i was in standard one. without fail, every SINGLE day mum will buy me food and i'll eat at the so called ' pondok. '
mum said she's worry that many people will be queuing up at the stalls and i couldnt buy my food. see. she's just so sweet :) i just couldnt describe my beloved mum using just ONE word. even a thousand or million words will not be enough. it is true that i have lots of reason to cry but i will not let that happen. i wish that i will change not to let emotions take over me. i know i needa be smiling throughout the day. i need to keep mum's mood HIGH all the time. hahahaha. basically my brother and i are the same type. just that my sister is very weak. she cries easily. and that is why my brother and i are here to neutralize the situation. make sure everyone is happy and cheerful.
AND MUMMY BELOVED, i promise i'll take great care of myself when you're not around in ipoh. i will study harder cause i wanna impress you with my results someday.
MUM YOU ARE THE GREATEST MUMMY IN THE WORLD. planning my future since i am a kid. and in another life i hope i'll be your mum and you'll be my kid cause i want to pay back all that you've sacrifice for me. pay you back with all my love.
MUM ILOVEYOU





p/s thankyou for being a lovely friend of mine, NICOLE TAN :D

♥JOEY1827


FINGERS = MY LIFE ♥ at 6:14 AM



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when i look at my fingers it remind me of LIFE. LIFE is always an adventurous road. sometimes its just a straight and easy road but sometimes is a bumpy and scary road. perhaps what i'm going through now is just the scariest and 'bumpiest'
road in life... yet, i know the key to overcome all this is to be OPTIMISTIC (:

is it so easy to carry out what i've said? words are easy to say but hard to carry it out. and now knowing so many things which i wished not to know. my post today is all about MY MUM. as many of you know, my mum is ill. and as i've also mentioned in my earlier post. she had a brain tumor. on the 18th of november she undergo a surgery to remove the tumor. somehow only 40% is removed. according to the doctor, the tumor is a cancerous tumor is he removed everything my mum might not be able to wake up for the rest of her life. and the 40% tumor which had removed was sent to canada immediately to identify the type of tumor and what is the next step to be taken to cure my mum. on the 11.12.2010 the report was out. my family and i travel down to johor on friday and left to singapore on saturday. doctor told my mum there's two steps to be taken now which is the radiotheraphy and chemotheraphy.it will take about 2months. mum and dad might have to stay in singapore and leave me alone in ipoh as school is gonna reopen soon. as he had finish explaining to us
we left the room. doctor hold my sister back and pretend that he's directing my sister to another hospital where my mother will go for her futher treatment. mum told me to go in to listen along in case my sister dont understand soon my brother came in too as that's my mum's request. doctor finally told us the truth. he said, the report shows that my mum's tumor is a rare type and the name itself is scary enough 'glioblastoma multiforme'. till today nothing can cure it. and now all we can do is give her those treatment so that she could live longer. doctor even said my mum's lifespan is only about 2 to 3 years.
if miracles happen mum will go beyond 3 years if not? that's the end of the battle.
mum dont wanna receive her treatment in singapore cause the cost is getting higher and higher. the currency is increasing from time to time and she's worry if she use up a lot of money. we will not have enough money to continue studying in overseas.
she also dont wanna go singapore bcause its too far away. she's worry of me. how am i gonna live without her taking care of. and i feel that i am the one pulling her back from these treatment. as everyone knows malaysia's techonology in curing all these sucks. and singapore is the best option. mum knows nothing about her lifespan, nothing and she thought it would be fine if she receive her treatment in penang or kl. she's wrong and everything is wrong. i am scared as time goes by. i am worry as years comes by. i dont wanna lose my mum. now that i finally realize how much she had sacrifice for me. how much of love she poured for me. and now? i can only sit back and watch how she's gonna suffer?
god, my mum is the greatest mum i've ever met. please dont take her life away :(
i am begging you
p/s friends even if you've read my blog please dont spread this news around. keep it to yourself. your cooperation is very appreciated

♥ JOEY1827