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DESOLATE & DOLEFUL ♥ at 9:10 AM

Its been quite sometime i didnt update my bloggy. i've been very busy lately, after my happy day in LOST WORLD... everything changed. i still remember that on the 20th of october 6 of us which were sukyein, soo, jikay, zhiling, kahmun and i went to lost world and have lots and lots of fun. but why happy moments end so fast? the next day doctor spotted a tumor in mum's brain. and thats when everything changed. from laughters to tears. from happy to sad. sigh. its been a very hard time for me to face all these afterall i'm just 15. i know this is not an acceptable reason perhaps i'm just trying to make myself feel better. i could see that mum is sad too and all that i can do is to cheer her up and make her feel better hoepfully she can be more optimistic. no matter how sad i would be... no matter how much i feel like crying... i will have to hold back. i know it is not just about myself now. if i dont control my feelings and emotions i will just make the condition worst. MUM, thankyou. i still remember everytime i fall you'll give me motivation to stand up again. you always give me all your love as dad couldnt give to me. you pay full attention on me day or night. and now it is my turn to repay all that you've done for me. it is true that bcause of you i will miss out the fun which is the opportunity to join the activities after PMR. but now... nothing is more important than you... fun is nothing to me now, i just hope that you'll always remember that GIVING UP IS NEVER AN OPTION. please dont be afraid of the operation. everyone out there always give you their fullest support.cause we know that YOU'RE GREAT! you always out everyonee before you. you sacrificed so so much for us. till this very moment you're still worry about us instead of yourself. why am i that bad? at times i throw my temper on you. i promise from now on i will hold back all my temper and never hurt you anymore. no matter how hard i will change. i wont complain even there's a lot of house chores to do. i will not speak out even if you throw your temper on me. people around me are right, they told me... JOEY, you're a real lucky girl. LOOK, your mum prepare breakfast for you. my mum? she wont even bother to make for me. hmm. every night before i sleep, mum will ask me. girl, what do you wanna have for breakfast tmrw? i can even choose what i wanna eat. i miss all those delicious breakfast and now i regret for not finishing the fried noodles you made for me when i was sitting for my PMR. you woke up early in the morning just to prepare all these for me.. but why didnt i appreciate it that time? please mum... recover soon. i need you so badly. people might always see me smiling away and laughing out loud too but there's always another side of me. i could be very depress that i dont feel like talking. i talk less compared to last time and i knew its very abnormal. i dont like mixing with very noisy and talkative people. i would love to have more peace.
MUMMY, you know ILOVEYOU? you know INEEDYOU? its hard for me to imagine days without you. YOU'RE THE GREATEST MUM. thank god for making me as your daughter i am just so lucky. now... money means nothing to me, all i want is just a happy family. happily together. you've made me a better person. if its not bcause of you keep on pushing me to study. i wouldnt be in HERON now.
* THANKYOU MUM, YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING, MY BEST COMPANION GIVING ME THE BEST MEMORIES EVER. YOU GREW ME UP AND I'LL REPAY YOU IN FUTURE. ILOVEYOU, NOW AND FOREVER ♥ *

STAY STRONG AND GOD WILL BLESS YOU THROUGH ALL THESE HARD TIME :)



MY MUM ♥

♥ JOEY1827