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DESOLATE & DOLEFUL ♥ at 9:10 AM

Its been quite sometime i didnt update my bloggy. i've been very busy lately, after my happy day in LOST WORLD... everything changed. i still remember that on the 20th of october 6 of us which were sukyein, soo, jikay, zhiling, kahmun and i went to lost world and have lots and lots of fun. but why happy moments end so fast? the next day doctor spotted a tumor in mum's brain. and thats when everything changed. from laughters to tears. from happy to sad. sigh. its been a very hard time for me to face all these afterall i'm just 15. i know this is not an acceptable reason perhaps i'm just trying to make myself feel better. i could see that mum is sad too and all that i can do is to cheer her up and make her feel better hoepfully she can be more optimistic. no matter how sad i would be... no matter how much i feel like crying... i will have to hold back. i know it is not just about myself now. if i dont control my feelings and emotions i will just make the condition worst. MUM, thankyou. i still remember everytime i fall you'll give me motivation to stand up again. you always give me all your love as dad couldnt give to me. you pay full attention on me day or night. and now it is my turn to repay all that you've done for me. it is true that bcause of you i will miss out the fun which is the opportunity to join the activities after PMR. but now... nothing is more important than you... fun is nothing to me now, i just hope that you'll always remember that GIVING UP IS NEVER AN OPTION. please dont be afraid of the operation. everyone out there always give you their fullest support.cause we know that YOU'RE GREAT! you always out everyonee before you. you sacrificed so so much for us. till this very moment you're still worry about us instead of yourself. why am i that bad? at times i throw my temper on you. i promise from now on i will hold back all my temper and never hurt you anymore. no matter how hard i will change. i wont complain even there's a lot of house chores to do. i will not speak out even if you throw your temper on me. people around me are right, they told me... JOEY, you're a real lucky girl. LOOK, your mum prepare breakfast for you. my mum? she wont even bother to make for me. hmm. every night before i sleep, mum will ask me. girl, what do you wanna have for breakfast tmrw? i can even choose what i wanna eat. i miss all those delicious breakfast and now i regret for not finishing the fried noodles you made for me when i was sitting for my PMR. you woke up early in the morning just to prepare all these for me.. but why didnt i appreciate it that time? please mum... recover soon. i need you so badly. people might always see me smiling away and laughing out loud too but there's always another side of me. i could be very depress that i dont feel like talking. i talk less compared to last time and i knew its very abnormal. i dont like mixing with very noisy and talkative people. i would love to have more peace.
MUMMY, you know ILOVEYOU? you know INEEDYOU? its hard for me to imagine days without you. YOU'RE THE GREATEST MUM. thank god for making me as your daughter i am just so lucky. now... money means nothing to me, all i want is just a happy family. happily together. you've made me a better person. if its not bcause of you keep on pushing me to study. i wouldnt be in HERON now.
* THANKYOU MUM, YOU'RE MY EVERYTHING, MY BEST COMPANION GIVING ME THE BEST MEMORIES EVER. YOU GREW ME UP AND I'LL REPAY YOU IN FUTURE. ILOVEYOU, NOW AND FOREVER ♥ *

STAY STRONG AND GOD WILL BLESS YOU THROUGH ALL THESE HARD TIME :)



MY MUM ♥

♥ JOEY1827


MY FIFTEEN BIRTHDAY ♥ at 8:27 AM


IT TOOK ME 364 days to wait for the arrival of today, 18.10.2010 and yes, it is my BIRTHDAY. for me, today is a super duper hyper HAPPY DAY :) having 18 friends celebrating with me on this meaningful day of mine in LIFE. i remember the last time i celebrate my birthday was when i was just 7years old. with another group of friends.and now i have my new life here in MGS. wait. not new anymore its almost 3years. and next year most probably we wouldnt be in the same class anymore. we'll be seperating and that's the worst thing that i'm never awaiting to happen. and something more surprisingly just happened not more than 24hours ago was... C talked back to me :)
i was so glad to receive her mail and my tears just roll down my cheek. i felt so happy and that's what i said as the greatest gift :) feeling free without any enemies. made up my mind to forgive suetmun and cys. should have let go earlier on but i just couldnt until one morning i just feel that i should just forget about this already. so whats the big deal if they're couple. does it even concerns me? the answer is NO.. cause think about it i have complete zero relationship with cys already so.. why do i give a damn on it? they have their choices so i shouldnt interfere that's too childish of me. haha. maybe bcause i'm FIFTEEN ALREADY. and also bcause i have found another FOSTER who truly loves me LEOWWAIMUN :D
and here i'll be talking about my DESKMATE, TANGYUJIE. arghh. yujie ah, dont spend so much on me can or not? you shouldnt use so much on money on me though your parents didnt disagree. and i really like your parents. omg. they're so nice.
next year mostly we'll be in different classes but 2years of memories can be long enough till the end of my schooling day. ILOVEYOU, YUJIE :)
ohh, almost forgotten about my mum's hardwork. she made me 2eggs as breakfast. and its NOT red but YELLOW. i asked her why and she said. ohh, YELLOW very 'ONG' which means some kinda prosperity -.- yet she really make me felt so happy looking at those eggs. omg. haha. MY BIRTHDAY CAKE, there's my name JOEY LAUTNER. OMG. my sis. ILOVEHER too :D well, i could say that this years celebration was a BLAST.
FREE FROM PMR. WHEE. thankyou for attending the party
-JINGEE,WAITENG,MEILING,KAHMUN,JANICE,CHEEYIN,MINGYAN,SIM,SUKYEIN,SOO,YUJIE,EVA,
ZHILING,JIKAY,NICOLETAN,WINNIE,CHEESAN,LIXIN
THANKYOU for all the laughters you brought. i'm so HAPPY :)

♥JOEY1827


I AM BACK ♥ at 10:17 AM

AFTER a month of books and worksheets. i am finally free. exam is over and activities are on. yet, i dont really feel so fun for it. somehow i rather staying at home. okay well i know its weird. lately i could feel that i talk less. depending on my mood. when i am alone somehow i feel better. i start to have weird hobbies that only nanny's have which is sitting under a shady tree and drink a cup of warm coffee? haha. maybe not so. i actually like to sit at the balcony and just enjoy the scenery. i like peace.
i really anti noisy places. idk why? i love to listen to sentimental songs. soft and slow which makes me calm. i like to watch movie alone. i dislike hanging out in shopping center that often. i love my garden, i would like to sit on the green green grass and feel the heat from the sun... but... i'm afraid that the sun will burn my skin off and ended up i'll be like a charcoal -.- this is me.
i love my piano and yet i hate exams. hmm. so worry that i will fail this and that.
i'm worry that my sweaty fingers will make me play on the wrong note. omg. i can imagine that ugly situation. hmm. let me count, 24 more days. MUM & DAD will be going for their so called ' HONEYMOON ' trip and yes, they'll be having lots and lots of fun and i'll be dying at home ALONE WITH MY SUPER TALKATIVE GRANDMA and her maid of course, if not who is going to wash & iron the clothes. who's gonna prepare the food for me. who is going to take care of the dogs and who is gonna accompany me when they're not around. sigh. i really dont mind that grandma is staying with me under the same roof, what i really mind is she's too talkative. how am i going to have peace lidat? howw? she'll be telling me stories about her neighbour's daughter's children's friends? or she'll be telling me about her neighbour's husband's sister's daughter? which i have complete no idea who it is :(
sigh. but i have just got to bare with it :X she's old so yea, let it be...

ILOVETAYLORLAUTNER ♥

♥ JOEY1827