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I WILL MOVE ON, I PROMISE ♥ at 5:26 AM


MOVING ON, its not just about LOVE its also about my BROKEN FRIENDSHIP. thinking of all these. YES, it hurts. VERY BADLY but i know no point avoiding. it had already become a fact. HMM... i have been a LOVE FAILURE. i did not have a long relationship with N. NOW that i sat down and think again, i realize it wasn't all N's fault. I shouldn't put all the blame on N perhaps it was my fault too. I AM NOT GOOD ENOUGH and that's why i couldn't keep N by myside. but its alright... its already a history now. N has a new girlfriend and tmrw will be their first month anniversary. CONGRATULATIONS N, i am happy for you. i won't hate you anymore. though we cannot be like last time, have normal chats but we're still friends. thankyou for taking the initiative to add me back in facebook though i removed N first. so sorry. that time i acted too childish. BUT now i am awake. i should face instead of avoid. i will not let you hold me back anymore. cause i know letting you go, what i actually need is my DETERMINATION. my FIRST step was deleting 1300 sms of yours to me and indirectly i am already deleting our memories off. and ABOUT my friendship. YES, maybe she's true i am a MUMMY GIRL. mostly what my mum says i will just listen to her. ITS bcause i know how much my mum loves me. i want to be a good kid. I DON'T wanna be a rebellious kid. i just wanna be the BEST kid ever though i know i couldn't be one. I AM NOT HER NUMBER ONE BUT MUM IS ALWAYS MY NUMBER ONE. she gave me all her love. she prepared me the best meals the whole day long. yes, sometimes i also cannot stand her for some reasons but if i really think of all she had did for me. i am so not willing to be angry of her for long. just one night i was very sad that i woke up in the middle of the night and cried. tears flow like rain pours. AFTER crying alone i felt much more better and so i went back to bed. LOL. wait out of topic.
* tut tut * friendship. what is the definition of friends? friend is a person you know well and regard with affection and trust. LAST TIME, i use to trust C but now i can't :(
perhaps someone is doing something unnecessary to just make the relationship between C and I getting from bad to WORST! but i know if C really trust me all these won't happen. haha. it might be also bcause i don't look trustworthy at all. hehe. my theory...
I DONT NEED A THOUSAND FRIENDS TO BE FAMOUS, BUT I JUST NEED ONE FRIEND WHICH IS ALWAYS TRUE AND CARING.
I AM LACK OF LOVE, PLEASE GIVE ME YOUR LOVE ♥
I WILL MOVE ON!
p/s : ILOVEYOU, my BIG-MAC-GOR

♥ JOEYLAUTNER1827